下雨天

下雨天 总会让人有多番滋味
让人体会不同的情节
再忙碌的生活  即时偶尔更孤独的时刻
学习暂停一下 看一看四周围的事件
关一关心身边的人

不懂现在的我应该还得有所转变吗
看回以前的我  转变是有
好的 不好的 优点的 缺点的
有时候  却不懂自己到底想要什么
很不喜欢这种感觉  让我措手不及 很渺茫
突然听着杨培安 的《下雨天》
窗外也应景地下着牛毛细雨
有种空虚的感觉 想找个人陪 想要有个人陪在我身边
谈谈天 说说心事 分享心情
但是人呢？ 你呢？怎么都没人的
我空虚的时候 却没人在身边的时刻 真的很孤独
没办法 望着窗外 凝望着夜空 这感觉至少有点弥补  不多，也不少

这首歌告诉我，
下雨天 最浪漫的时间 在自己的角落 连发呆也有情节
下雨天 最寂寞的考验 在窗外的世界 谁对我多看一眼
没错 我体会了

想想想

太主动的女生   会让我措手不及
会让我处理得不好
现在好像又有了
这些都感觉不是命中注定的桃花

难道我心目中的你
不需要那么主动
就只须给我那么一点指引 贴士 认定  都不能吗？

Quotes to learn

When you love someone,
Age, Distance, Height, Weight ...
is just a fucking damn number !!

Should I ?

I'm really a rational kind of person
always like to think the possibilities ahead before taking a move
That doesn't sound bad at all
But then, sometimes because of such habit
it caused me to lose a lot of opportunities
never try never know
but if i try I afraid that I don't want to know
if I don't try I will never know
just that I afraid it will ruin everything that goes nicely
That is just me, too logical
I hate that side of me
I always feel like to do whatever feels right
whatever my heart wants me to do, but at the end my brain is the one stopping me from taking further steps
Should I put aside what that make the ME, OR start doing whatever I feel right to do
Follow heart, and not mind for one moment.
If so, will it ruin everything?? I'm scared, I start pondering, and let the future decides for us

被踩到了！

我自认脾气很好
从来都不想，也不喜欢发脾气
我的一位兄弟说他的尾巴很长，别人很容易踩到
那我就是尾巴短的那个

最近，真的有一个人惹毛我了
撇开他多次出言不逊，爱炫耀，
有他讲没人讲，
我都多次忍耐了
因为我觉得没必要对这些人发脾气
我又不是要跟你过人世
但到最后，你的性格真的惹到我了，也惹到了我身边的朋友

你有先天性的聪明
但有必要多次炫耀吗
你身边的朋友没有像你先天性的聪明，所以得多加勤劳念书，这样你也看不顺眼，要多次奚落人家吗
你待人处事真的有那么差吗
难道你还没察觉到你身边的朋友都对你反感了吗

我不想发如此的脾气
但真的一时被惹毛了
想了又想，学业上，道义上，我都帮了你那么多
但很少听到你的谢谢 还得听你在我面前多次的炫耀 奚落我
为什么？我眼睛都湿了 朋友是酱做的吗
我忍着， 你不配我的眼泪

我要息怒， 息怒
大家都认同你是不能深交的朋友
也只能说是泛泛之交
对，我不是要跟你过人世的
我忍， 小不忍则乱大谋

InvaSion

I really don't know what I want
I really don't know where should I stand now
You were stealthily invading my mind
I really don't know what was happening
Where is my defence system which I have built up since I broke up
For just few days, it has been destroyed completely
I clearly understand the line between us
and I never meant to cross that line
I know it will ruin everything that we have gone through
Maybe it was only a temporary mistake
a mistake that I have resisted for such a long time
Or maybe it was just a sudden blow to my mind
which had caused me to be blurred by that neither thin nor thick distinguishing line

It is time for me to wake up
though I have to admit that you had once successfully invaded into my mind, to my soul
But I'm here to remind myself that doesn't mean anything to me, and you yourselves either
Just that sometimes it is heart-broken to see that when I put you on top of my priorities
and you just see me as an option.
it is not a blame on you, it is just me that have been thinking too much lately
It's time to wake up, I have to try my best to resume everything back to last time
Pull myself back from the confusing line, which I should never cross over

心不动， 则不痛

有种说法，不是害怕尝试
而是害怕再受同一个原因伤害
也许是有过这样的伤痕
让我走起路来 特别谨慎
无法再承受那种痛苦
心碎过  狠狠地被践踏过
所以才把这世界看得较灰了
除非有回应 不然我可能会原地踏步
至少保持着不受伤害的状况
再往前一步 可能是幸福 也可能是万劫不复
我不想 我害怕 痛过了 也懂了
要不停提醒自己
总得要有一条界限  一条分叉线  还是一条楚河汉界也好


最近 身边的人都不乐
压力的  执着的  悲伤的
而我能做到的只是尽量让他们好过点
可能算不了什么 只希望能感受到我的关心
想着想着， 我伤心难过时 会有人借我肩膀吗